I’m not gonna do it!

Oh my goodness. Sometimes I wonder what happened?? I sit down at the end of my day, well not even that…when my girls go to sleep and just sit and stare at the wall.

Seriously, my girls are only 5 and 7 and holy moly do they give me a run for my money. It’s just me, my family are in the USA and I am flying solo, like so many mummies out there, I know. But whoa, it’s hard. I’m sitting and looking at our house…it looks like a tornado visited for tea! Am I going to tidy up or am I going to watch a film?

I AM GOING TO WATCH A FILM.

While still feeling ready to take in the world…I am in need of turning off my brain for a bit. It has been on overdrive and needs a little breather.

So, I will sit here…watch a film and forget about the mess, just for a while.

And all was quiet in my world.

Until morning, anyway.

Xx

They nailed it!!

My girls came back to me last night, so I have been in full on mummy mode! We definitely don’t stop…and they seem to go with the flow!

We went to the club today so I could see a client and after a few minutes…I went to check on them. I found them hand in hand with a fitness instructor wanting to try an Insanity class!

For those of you who don’t know Insanity…it’s a crazy fitness class! So, me with my jeans on and my girls very excited(well, Nieve not as excited as Eliza) we joined Insanity and they nailed it!

Now they know our members and our instructors and they were being well looked after. I can say they loved every minute of it and so did I. Although my little one Nieve, kicked me out not long after.

It’s good to feel wanted!!😂

After my last post cancer scan, a couple of weeks ago, instead of an “All is great” letter, I got a letter with another scan appointment, so I am a bit concerned and it did throw me a bit, but I have brushed that aside and will carry on and try not to worry.

Enough said about that, no energy wasted there.

So for me this week, I will be enjoying life with my girls and keeping my momentum going with work. I’m holding on tight to it, I have to keep it going.

Good things are coming!!

What are you going to do with your week?

Xx

Clear skies ahead!

Well, true to my word, changes have been made. I haven’t stopped working on my business and I couldn’t be more excited!

It definitely helps with some headphones in and choosing the soundtrack to my life.

Music puts a spring in my step and a smile on my face.

I feel more focused and more like the old me. Actually, I’m feeling like the NEW me. The me that the old me would be very proud to be.

I have rediscovered so much that I had forgotten about. My head has been down for so long. I have missed so many smiling faces. Faces in my life and at my club, Caversham Health and Fitness.

The importance of having friends to talk to and listen to, cannot be measured. They help to make sense of so much and sometimes they give that little push. Although, for the last couple of days, I have just been jumping. Head first!

Sometimes we become so consumed(and that truly can’t be helped) that you forget what it feels like to be present, in the now. Not clouded by “what if’s” and worry.

This week I watched my daughters get excited about a new sport. I had so much fun watching them learn something new. Now, when I was clouded, I would have missed that chance, but nope, not now! I was clear and loved every minute. I will never miss a chance like that again.

Cancer has a way of changing the way you see things…I just had to get through those clouds.

Now, I don’t know how I got from one to the other, but I do know that writing things down and trusting in myself and in my friends, I have moved from cloud to clear.

Fingers crossed for clear skies from here on.

I am so grateful.

I am also so thankful for you taking the time to read my words.

I’m sure I will go up and down, but I feel like mentally I’m leaving so much behind and I do not plan to revisit that place.

I haven’t made any steps toward that physically healthier me, but tomorrow I’m working on that.

Mentally and physically this will be a long road, it doesn’t have to be hard though. Trusting in myself and with little help from my friends, my journey will go from strength to strength.

Now, find that soundtrack to your life and come on!

All my love xxx

Is Christmas over yet?!?

Oh my goodness….such good intentions!!

Big fat…NOPE.

Well, this week my girls are still out of school. They are out of routine, getting not enough sleep and we are in utter “after Christmas chaos”! I have managed to get close to NOTHING accomplished, except get frazzled nerves. This is where I feel at my most alone.

Someone please help!!

I have managed to keep my girls fed and clothed(applause needed) and had some exciting outings and almost kept my sanity, but as far as business and me time…almost zilch!

Just my luck. That’s my woe is me done…for today.

I have managed to sort a bit of childcare out tomorrow to give me some time to plan! So, I will continue building the foundations for great things…so many great things! The club, Caversham Health and Fitness, if I hadn’t said, is going to get more of my attention and most of all, I am going to get more of my attention!

Yes, life got in the way this week of building financially, but it didn’t get in the way of spending quality time with my girls. I am just so thankful after 2017/2018, that I have the time(I am living my second chance) and the ability to spend time with my girls. Even though I might have locked myself in the bathroom for just a few minutes, for quiet time…on a couple of occasions, but what mum doesn’t do that? Right?!?

Like I said, I am on my own, so I have to manage.

So roll on tomorrow and I look forward to building those foundations!

What you see is what you get.

As a complete beginner at blogging (my 7 year old daughter knows more than I do), who knows what you will get. But, I’m hoping it will be interesting. It’s going to be for me anyway.

Sitting in my local coffee shop with a friend, she is giving me a crash course in social media!😆 I want to share my story of taking control of every aspect of my life after coasting along for some time now. Journaling what I do will help me stay on track. Tomorrow is my 43rd birthday and I won’t let another escape me without making the most of it! Life is ours to take or waste. So, don’t waste another day. I know I won’t.

Here goes nothing!

My life has been all over the place for a while now and it’s time for me to take the reins.

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I am a single mum, with the best ex husband and father of my children, so no complaints there. I also run a health club and I do not practice what I preach.

After my divorce, I did throw myself into training but was soon struck down with a backache which persisted for over a year that stopped me from training. Yes, disappointing, but the truly disappointing bit was to find out it was cancer. Kidney cancer to be exact.

I was very lucky to get a cancer that was forgiving. Physically forgiving that is and treatable. Although this cancer was physically forgiving, it was mentally devastating, scary and heartbreaking.

There’s more to that heartbreak, but will have to share another time. Actually, there’s a lot more to this story, but it will all come out in the wash.

Yes, it’s all…just my luck.

It has been just over a year since my treatment, I’m feeling good and so very grateful to be cancer free, but I am only just getting my head around the diagnosis.

So here I am, starting a blog of my new journey. My journey from good to GREAT! I wanted to invite you into my life to watch my progress. Mentally and physically. Exciting, right?!! Well, it’s gonna be!!

Things are always more fun when your friends are with you! So come on!

So as they say…watch this space!